Why The Guilt???

It is three o'clock in the afternoon. In 45 minutes I have to walk down the block to Traeton's school and pick him up. I have had Elias down for almost two hours and Addison fell asleep one hour ago. I have yet to complete one single thing off my growing 'to do' list. I have checked my email, I have caught up on Facebook and now I am posting on our blog. None of these things, in my mind, are productive ways to spend the afternoon. So, as a result I feel terribly guilty that I have wasted away this time.

WHY??? Why can't I chill for a few hours and not be productive with out feeling wasteful? How do we get to this point where we feel the need to constantly be achieving? If there isn't forward motion happening, crossing off tasks on the to-do list, then I feel I have fallen short, wasted the hours God has granted me to be all I can for my family, myself and my community.

Todd is so great at balancing. He feels no guilt to just check out for a while and play a game of Aquire on the net. Good for him. For ten years I have been trying to learn from him but it just frustrates me to know there are things to be done that are not getting done. Just call me Martha.

Elias - The Fun One!

This is it! It is here! Elias' second birthday! Here is a picture of our Baby Bear enjoying an ice cream sundae at lunch today. He truly is a ball of fun. He has yet to begin talking yet he 'communicates' very well through squeals and squeaks. Today, his big day, was spent on an impromptu trip to Pueblo. The whole way he gave commentary on all the large sized vehicles on the road, tractors on the side of the road and trains passing by.

Huge thanks to those of you who have inquired about his Child Find appointment last Monday. Elias was found to speak in the lower 5th percentile for his age bracket. He was put at the 15 month age for speaking. Today he turned 24 months. So he is nine months behind on his speech development.

Todd and I are not surprised or shocked. We both knew there was a problem now we'll get it taken care of. The experts say that he has low muscle tone in his mouth/tongue/lips so he is physically unable to form words. We are to do exercises with him that'll help strengthen those muscles. And he has been approved for speech therapy. His first appointment is this coming Wednesday at our home. Due to his age all his appointments will be at our home!! Yea.

Ahhhhutumn

Does anyone else out there just love crisp autumn air!?!? I absolutely love having the windows cracked just enough to let the fresh air flow in along with the slight chill that begs for a light sweater and a pair of slippers. Autumn candles are the next most important ingredient for these crisp days. The aroma fills the house with that 'this is our cozy home' smell. LOVE IT!

Tomorrow is Elias' Child Find appointment for his speech delays. I am not worried or nervous, just curious. I am eager to find out why our baby bear does not talk. If it is nothing then no big deal, we know to be patient and wait on his natural development. If it is something then let's take care of it so he can join in on the conversation!

Super Long Time

Since it has been a super long time since I've blogged I feel that I really need to post something. I am stuck in a conundrum, there really is nothing to write yet at the very same time there is so much to write I could never cover it all. Hmmm... Throughout my days I often think 'I could really post this' but then life sweeps time away, the sun falls out of our sky just to climb back up a few hours later and all my well-intended plans dissolve out of my brain.

So, as I wrote the above paragraph one topic did come to mind. I am preparing to embark on a whole new realm of adulthood...Quicken - finance tracking!! For all the years and summers and holiday vacations I worked for my Dad I entered more expenditures into Quicken than I believe was countable. I believe I was Quicken-ed out. Well those memories have faded enough that I believe it is time for me to get a glimpse into where our money is 'invested'. hehehe.

Don't read into this, we are not struggling in any way. We, to the best of my uninformed knowledge, are doing just fine. The problem is that I really don't know percentages. You know, what percentage goes to basic needs, food, shelter, etc. and what percentage goes to fluff.

I should really be spending my time setting up this new Quicken account and not babbling on and on about this. There probably is not another person in all Douglas County who is like me in this area. People here are way too in touch with their money, did I just say that??